I need to plan my blog posts. Have I said that before?
I am usually meticulous at planning, needing to know where I am going and when I need to get there. But not when it comes to communicating with my readers.
This blog doesn’t do what I set it up to do any more, and I have noticed that I am trying to keep the posts related to the creative writing process. Today, I am feeling uninspired. I had a few fleeting thoughts but nothing much jumped out at me. So rather than the writing, I chose the life of a writer.
Not long ago, I wrote a post called ‘Gaining Confidence’. Now I have a crisis of confidence. I got the feedback for my assignment, and to say it wasn’t encouraging is being nice.
I wasn’t told that I couldn’t write. Just that what I had written was wrong, all wrong, in every way that mattered.
So I thought: Should I give up? Can a writer be made? Be taught? Why bother?
I sought help from fellow writers on forums. My questions weren’t really answered, but I felt less of a failure.
One said something which has proven to be poignant. Instead of seeing writing as an alternative (and better) to a proper job, it should be treated with the same respect that a proper job is given. And as with a proper job, training is part and parcel. If I knew enough about writing, I wouldn’t be on the course. So I realised, I am in my 3 month trial period of my new job. Unfortunately, this writing job only pays when you have completed your training! But I am fortunate in that no wages from me isn’t a huge problem.
Others piped up saying that I would be lucky to make a living. I don’t think luck has anything to do with it really. And as I don’t need to make a living, it isn’t that important. Then the same also said that most writers have a day job too. But I don’t want a day job. If I did, I’d be doing more. As it stands, the only reason I write is because I want to. I enjoy being at home, and Him Indoors prefers that. As he reminds me ‘it solves more problems than it creates’.
If I didn’t write, I would go crazy. It is what I have always done. And the challenges the course brings keeps my intellect stimulated – something that I learned Nat Geo couldn’t do. I enjoy learning. But I also like to earn money. It is how I was brought up.
If there came a time that I needed to get a day job, I would in a heart beat. But for now, I am happy being a writing SAHM mom.
I will tackle the other questions in future posts (see? I’m planning already)
But what would your answers be?